I am frustrated beyond frustrated. My problem? I can't follow routines.
I just recently visited a doctor who wanted me to take a pill every day, and I told her that I would do my best, but I am terrible at routines. Unfazed, she replied that I should take it every time I brush my teeth. I honestly responded that I don't brush my teeth every day.
That took her back. Wasn't there anything I did every day? I told her that besides my train ride commuting every weekday, no, not regularly. And this statement has sent me into a downward spiral of self-doubt and despair.
Does anyone else have a problem getting into routines? I don't eat regularly, I don't sleep regularly, I don't brush my teeth regularly, I don't anything regularly. Regularly to me is a dirty word. Where on earth did this attitude come from? Now, if anyone suggests for me to do something 'daily', I automatically reject the idea. Any time I have ever tried to do something daily, I fail miserably, and then get down on myself because of it.
And now it's affecting my health. And I still can't find a way to 'regulate' my life. And the more that people try to help, the less I feel like anything is possible.
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Wolfie
Posted on: 11/03/2008 16:24
lastpointe
hey wolfie, exactly what I
Posted on: 10/30/2008 13:33
hey wolfie,
exactly what I was thinking.
another idea:
My daughter carries her cell phone everywhere and has it set to alarm at 10 p/m/ she then takes a pill that she also takes daily.
ninjafaery
Does it have it's roots in
Posted on: 10/30/2008 14:35
Does it have it's roots in rebellion? I've just recently begun (at my very ripe age) to have a handle on routines. For years I lived without them. I believe for me, as a free spirit, it was a reaction to being regimented by school and work. I'm an artist
, so I felt resentful of these expectations.
I'm starting to realize that routine can work for me, vs complying with what someone else wants.
PS: I'm not really an artist -- just a wannabe.
Faerenach
ninjafaery wrote:Does it have
Posted on: 10/30/2008 15:26
I'm starting to realize that routine can work for me, vs complying with what someone else wants.
PS: I'm not really an artist -- just a wannabe.
I'm starting to think that you and I have a fair amount in common, ninjafaery! Umm... it could be a bit rebellion, but probably more stubbornness. I know that as far back as first grade (when I was 6) I was refusing to play by the 'rules'. I remember being asked to set 'goals' and full-out refusing to do so. I had similar issues in Grades 2 and 3 when asked to keep daily journals. I couldn't do it for the life of me.
Wolfie, I like what you said about not doing things being a routine. I could try the pill by the bedside, see if it works. What I find is that I remember to do it for a week, then I skip one day, then it all falls apart. I'm the worst person getting up in the mornings EVER. I commute with my father, and we leave the house at 6:50am. I usually drag myself out of bed at 6:40. 6:30 on a good day. Doing anything in the mornings for me is like pulling teeth.
lastpointe, it's a good suggestion, but I'm one of those people who's lucky to have their phone on and charged. I can't even hear it when it rings, so I don't think that would work for me. But thank you for the idea!
abpenny
Hi Faeren...routine at home
Posted on: 10/30/2008 19:13
Hi Faeren...routine at home was not a natural thing for me either. I had to adapt to a routine when I was working full time with 3 boys to get ready for school, hockey, swimming, etc. I was very routine oriented at work, so it might have been a stubbornness issue for me.
I find now that I've learned to do things routinely (make the bed when I get up...take meat out for supper before I head for the coffeeshop, etc.) that it has actually given me a lot of freedom in my head. I don't think about these routine things and they are done automatically...it's worth catching on to...good luck to you!
LBmuskoka
Faerenach I'm afraid I have
Posted on: 10/30/2008 20:36
Faerenach I'm afraid I have no pithy words of advice, however if you find anything that works please share, because I too routinely avoid routines.
I'd like to say it is because I am a rebellious artiste, however the sad fact is I have a memory like a steel trap, it locks everything inside and then randomly spits stuff out at the most inopportune moment. Like tonight, when I suddenly remembered I had to pick something up at the store just as I parked the truck in front of the house and noticed the shopping bags behind me
LB
The only routine with me is no routine at all.
Jacqueline Kennedy Onassis
Wolfie
Posted on: 11/03/2008 16:25
Faerenach
LBmuskoka - I'm just
Posted on: 10/30/2008 22:39
LBmuskoka - I'm just impressed you remembered to have shopping bags. Well done you!
LBmuskoka
Faerenach, it is very
Posted on: 10/31/2008 06:27
Faerenach, it is very difficult to be environmentally friendly, believe you me - I have, as my partner would testify, hundreds of those enviro bags because of course I would wind up at the store without them, feeling guilty about killing plastic trees I would purchase more.
I thought, ooh lets be clever and put the bags beside the shoes and coat, so that when one leaves one will take them with one, nah, get distracted as I'm putting my coat on, out the door we go.
Yesterday I was good, remembered the bags but forgot to go shopping.
I'm like a puppy - ooh look there's a butterfly, ah there's a treat, oh a leaf...
LB - what's that behind me! Oops gotta go, wait look at that....
Faerenach
LBmuskoka - I know exactly
Posted on: 10/31/2008 08:26
LBmuskoka - I know exactly what you mean! We've started just keeping the bags in the back of the car. The only problem is I stop to pick something up and NEVER take the bags in with me! Sometimes, if I'm with help, I'll send them back to get the bags. Most times I just tell the clerk that I can manage without a bag. Last Lent, I gave up plastic bags and it not only showed me how much we don't usually need them, but also that the sheer convenience of them encourages us to just 'pick something up on the go'. Consumption animals, aren't we?
kenziedark
You could be writing about
Posted on: 10/31/2008 09:56
You could be writing about me. I've got two kids, and I work outside the home. I have to take my "pill" everyday to keep from getting more (still b-feeding, so other options like the patch don't work). I've stuck the package atop my mirror so that I remember when I brush my teeth. But, like you, I don't always brush my teeth on days when I'm not working. More then once I've gotten halfway through a day and ran home to take the pill I've forgot. (I'm off today, so I actually just ran upstairs to take the one I've forgotten)
It is harder to be less organized when you've got kids though. Fortunetly I've got a husband who doesn't function WITHOUT a routine, and he does most of the childcare activities in the morning and during the day. So they're getting the benefit of a consistent routine, without me having to do it.
For me I think it's that I have so many other things I'd rather do. And I get bored. I'm much better with creating, building or renovating things (projects) then maintaining or cleaning (routines).
The funny thing is that I'm super organized at work. Everything is filed away, and I can always find whatever I need. The key there, is that I schedule everything in my calender, and I don't keep any paper copies of anything. Nil, nada, nothing. I take my laptop to meetings to take notes. I do a lot of interviews as part of my job, and need to take notes. I just explain to people before I start that I'll be typing as we talk. If I do need to print something out for a meeting (normally an agenda for the other party), if they don't take it I'll recycle it once I get back to my desk. I don't have any clutter or anything personal on my desk (actually, I really need to put up photos of my children), and it's easy to clean if I have no paper.
At home, my house seems to always be verging on disaster. My husband feels like he's always going around picking up after me and the kids. We've started trying to take 1/2 hour after supper each day for a family clean up. I set the timer on the microwave and off we go. So far, so good.
SLJudds
Lordy, Lordy - And here's me
Posted on: 10/31/2008 22:32
Lordy, Lordy - And here's me too old to woo a young thing like you. You sound like my ideal type of gal.
I've been single so long I'm not housebroken anymore - but I always remember to eat - so that's when I take my pills.
kenziedark
I am glad it's just my birth
Posted on: 11/01/2008 10:01
I am glad it's just my birth control pill and not anything life threatening that I have to take. To Wolfie's point, I find it harder with kids to leave the pills where I'll see them and not keep them in the toddlers reach. Vitamins had to come off the table, and pills are actually stuck high up on my bathroom mirror.
Things you don't want to hear include your husband saying, as he shuffles your 2 year old out of your bedroom, "Honey, what day ARE you on?"
Shaaron
I fought against routine all
Posted on: 11/01/2008 22:11
I fought against routine all my life. Hated it. Thought people who followed them must be unhappy and trapped. Until a psychiatrist told me that routine often helps people with depression. I still fought it.
Now, at 57, I'm finding I actually like a bit of routine. And I can understand how other people benefit from it. Just last night I got out a piece of paper to write down the beginnings of a new routine for myself.
Kappa
I think for everyone, habits
Posted on: 11/02/2008 08:46
I think for everyone, habits are hard to break. Some people here have mentioned that they are routine oriented in one place, but not another. So, it doesn't seem like it's an issue with being routine-oriented versus not at the personal level, but more like what someone has gotten used to doing (at home, at work, at school) during their life. The good news is that you can BECOME routines oriented because whether you adopt routines or not, it just has to do with what you've got used to, not who you ARE as a person.
Of course, there's also the matter of ENJOYING routines or not. I guess people who like things neat and organized tend to encorporated routines into more parts of their lives, but that's because they like them, and want them. Whereas those who want to be spontaneous (and artistic?) try to stay away from them. So the bad news is that adopting routines is going to be super hard (even though technically possible) if you don't really WANT them because of what they stand for. :-)
A lot of health regimens rely on routines though, whether they are medications, diet, exercising, or adequate sleep, so I think that's why routines tend to be recommended. Also, for depression when I really don't feel like doing anything, a routine keeps me from giving in to that and getting through one...more...day... . And it DOES help.
Faerenach
Well, folks, I have been
Posted on: 11/05/2008 16:47
Well, folks, I have been doing my best to keep a routine going. I have been filling out a fibre scorecard for every single day, and an overall health chart as well. So far, so good.
I think what I've discovered is even when you want to throw something at your friends, they are truly the ones who want the best for you. Sometimes it's hard to do things you'd do for them for yourself... but with them bullying you into it, it's amazing what you can accomplish!